is not what im good at. and yet life has again challenged me by presenting me with the most 'agonizing,do-or-die' wait i would ever have to do.(well, up to date that is). i feel restless. i feel useless and unresourceful since i cant do anything BUT wait. back to sleepless nights. morning trances.spaced-out afternoons.endless thinking.

and nerve wrecking anticipation!

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on a lighter note, xmas is just around the corner. i just dont know if im really that excited about it. but still i wont deny that xmas spirit cheers me up and lightens up my mood for most days. i get caught singing xmas songs played over the radio. and complimenting xmas decors in malls and shops. =)