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Friday, May 16, 2008
what do you do when verything in your life fast forwards, and then pauses and by some magical force someone pressed rewind? and now you're back to square one? what do yo do when all that youve worked for, sacrificed your time with suddenly seems insignificant now? what do you do when all your hard work goes to waste?what do you do when all the things that you have grown with and used to have suddenly got snatched right in front of you? what do you do when you had everything and now, you are as penniless as the beggars on the street?
what can you do to have everything back again? to have everything that you have worked for pay off? to feel that life CAN be fair?
Friday, May 09, 2008
And so they tried to analyze me through my handwriting..lets see what theyve come up with.. Sab uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Sab does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Sab will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Sab is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?" People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Sab doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Sab will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Sab believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride. Sab will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it! Sab has a desire for attention. People around Sab will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character. In reference to Sab's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Sab slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Sab can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. Sab is capable of seeing far into the future. She plans two, three, even ten years in advance. Sab has high goals and can literally see them being reached. She is very self-confident and has a high self-esteem. Sab will reach whatever level of success she desires. Sab has the self-concept that is possessed by less than two percent of the population. That two percent contains the most successful people in the world. When a person has a high self-esteem, she frees herself to achieve an unlimited world of success. Sab has achieved this frame of mind. Congratulations. She has the self-confidence to take great risk, thus reaping the rewards. If she does fail, it doesn't break her confidence. She knows she can do it! In retrospect of our research, this trait is one of the most desirable to possess, because it releases the writer to achieve her full potential. We recommend everyone raise their self-esteem to this level. Sab has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people. Sab exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Sab allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Sab has a vivid imagination.
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Saturday, April 26, 2008
it feels good to be back home. i never knew id miss all the things that I used to hate about Manila-- the scorching heat, humid weather, the pollution, the dirty politics, the lack of discipline, the traffic. And now that we're together again, i know everything would be okay. Just like what I promised you, I'd be happy anywhere as long as we're together. totoo yan.=)
Friday, April 11, 2008
i hate that im being more vulnerable with you.i hate that every word you say affects me so much.i hate that i had opened up with you and yet with you its of no importance.i hate that i thought we both feel the same way and have the same dreams, but then you proved me wrong.i hate that i let my guard down with you, only to be hurt. for i am still a little girl at heart, always dreaming of flowers, sunshines, weddings, and happily ever afters. and sadly, i couldnt find it with you.
Monday, April 07, 2008
since you didnt reply to my email. ill just post my next one here. and show everyone how much of an ass you are. im sure you wont have an excuse for this one since this particular email was sent days before your 'move out' and before you lost inernet connection. and since you were also able to snoop on my multiply account, i dont see any reason for the lack of response. no. dont tell me just beacuse we talk on the phone everyday you thought you response wasnt necessary. another one of your lame excuses...wait. i know! maybe you are really a selfish insensitive asshole. yea, that would make sense. i see it now. these things dont matter to you. its of no importance and worthy of your ignorance. thank you. its all clear to me now.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
that fateful day has finally come. mom was the deliverer of bad news. i got a call from her at office hours. back from the call, i act composed and as if no bad news has been relayed to me. i was still able to laugh at my colleagues funny antics and crazy stories. i was ok. or so i think. until i told him the news. and i broke down. id been here for almost a year now. and ive always thought that id be ok to leave all of this behind. that i would not feel any emotional attachment to unlce sam. that leaving wouldnt feel this heavy and difficult. maybe because im leaving you behind. or maybe because ive enjoyed every single day that i was here. i know its just for a while, but still i feel like im going to miss so much.. i never knew id miss this adopted country of mine. i never knew id miss the f*cking cold weather, and the scorching summer heat. i never knew id miss my train rides and bus hopping adventures. i never knew id miss my place of work-- the gossips, the chitchats, the food deliveries, the crazy customer stories, the VIP parties, my eccentric colleagues. i never knew id miss my bestbuddys. i never knew id miss my friends here. i never knew id miss the 'bundat nko' food trips and buffets. i never knew id miss being a roomy. i never knew id miss the night outs and the steady 'garahe' inuman here. i never knew id miss the independency, the freedom and the responsibilities of being one. i never knew id miss going online for our mapquested roadtrips. i never knew id miss our 'shop till we drop' moments.
but hey id be going back home, i should be happy right?
Sunday, March 09, 2008
When I talk about it
It carries on Reasons only knew When I talk about it Aries or treasons All renew Big me to talk about it I could stand to prove If we can get around it I know that its true When I talked about it Carried on Reasons only knew But its you I fell into Well I talked about it Put it on Never was it true But its you I fell into
Sunday, February 24, 2008
we're counting only days before my fate gets to be decided. and i dont know why certain people gets to take it lightly or rudely comment that it would turn badly for me. These certain people I might add I have high expectations of. People I was expecting to be the first ones I could run to and ask comfort from or just cheer me up not the other way around. Was I supposed to always understand their pathetic lives? I dont need pity. That is one thing I definitely dont need. For I definitely dont want to be pitied at or be babied upon. I just need someone to be a friend to me. To make me laugh or just assure me everything is going to be alright or simply be there for me, no matter what. It pisses me off that these people who I treated to be my 'run-to's' were these self-absorbed. so im here all alone, wondering what to do next to get my mind off that fateful day. im in between. in the gray area. im all for 'yes' but id have to make do with the 'no' when it comes. And still, my faith still helps me through all of this.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
he didnt give me flowers. it was that time of the year that everyone wears red and celeberate love. and yet he didnt give me flowers. he picked me up from work. had dinner in the most expensive restaurant i have been to. and spent all of my savings on it. we had our friends tag along with us for the rest night. had a few bottles of beer and crashed in the apartment. and yet still no flowers. i woke up the next day to get shouted at. and as my last hopeful heart gave up..nothing still. he didnt give me flowers. but its ok. im ok. but us? go figure.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
he's back. and yet, im a mess.i have alot of unsettling ideas in my head. a lot fo confused emotions that i try to understand. my mood swings are at its highest peak. i thought everything would be okay now, i thought he would be able to save me. to know the right answers. to make everything right. but then again, he wasnt God. i had to do it all myself. and i guess leave everything to fate.
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