expect nothing.

midyear update

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 15:13:32 GMT

This is just an update.

I am still working for the same company for over a year now and still planning when would be the best time to tender my resignation.

We are still together and just celebrated our 5th year a few months ago. We are open to discussing our future plans now. hehe.

Tracy was back in Manila last month for a vacation. We had a really good reunion going down memory lane.

I just had my most needed vacation with my good friends in Palawan.

Oh, and I had the happiest birthday ever.I got 3 surprises from babs and a surprise party from my friends that got me teary-eyed.

I still have 3 more months to enjoy the rest of the year. To find a really good job, to prepare for my MBA, and to assess other opportunities outside the country. Hopefully, everything goes according to plan. If not, then I am more than ready for anything.

ok. for a while.

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 08:37:40 GMT

the second we saw each other everything started to be great. the next minute we were sharing laughs. the next hours we were toasting our glasses to our 'good old times'. the whole day was just reminiscient of how we were the past year. but everything ended. just as quickly. the second we said our goodbyes to each other. the minute we separated. and for the next hours we are apart. it just ended. owel..

working overtime

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 16:28:33 GMT

i had always judged people who worked longer hours, people who worked overtime. I've always thought that they allow themselves to be slaves of unjust work loads and tight deadlines. but i judged wrong.

ive been with my company now for almost half the year. I never realized that when they said overtime is pretty common around here especialy in our department, it was for real and that is was necessary. During my first week, I just shrugged off any guilt I was feeling when I would secrelty shut down my PC and walk quietly away from my work area while everyone else was staying, not really noticing that it was already time to leave.

And then work load just got heavier and heavier. I would have wanted to just leave it all for next days things-to-do. But then schedules and deadlines become tighter so I was left with no choice but to do the much dreaded 'overtime'.

Complaining didnt do me any good as I watched other departments shut down their PCs, re-touch their make-ups ( I dont really understand why they do that), fix their desks and get their bags as they prepare to leave. So I continued working on the report that was already 2 days past due.

After several hours ( I left at 930pm), I realized it wasnt all that bad. As a matter of fact, I think I liked it. Lesser noise and distractions. I could actually play my ipod without worrying that my seatmate would be looking all-weird at me. I have almost 1/3 of the floor to ourselves- no shrieking voices, no noisy keyboards, no moving chairs and no frantic footsteps. just me, my music, and my report. A short pizza break with my co-departments overtimers like myself wasnt so bad too. sharing a few laughs while complaining on diiferent clients, sharing work-related stories and joking about life in general.

And as the day ended, (as others would say), " All in a day's work"

III

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 05:12:21 GMT

No more difficult jeep rides

No more life-threatening cabs

No more speeding buses

and no more getting wet on rainy days,waiting for a PUV.

chiqui

fruit of labor and love.

his baby III

a falling star

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 07:07:09 GMT

he saw it first. it was a first-time for me. i wished very hard. but then by the end of the night,everything was 'normally' wrong.

twilight-ing

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 10:54:24 GMT

I am currently multi-tasking as I write this blog, battling with unsettled liabilities of various clients and secretly trying to catch up with my reading. I have to admit. I am caught up in Bella and Edward's unconvential love affair.Imagining how it must be to be with somebody so enchanting, so mesmerizing, so tempting. I was addicted to it -- never wanting to put the book down, flipping as many pages as I can. and I begin to wonder why the hell am I so into this novel? why am I so enthralled into their story?

Maybe because Id want to feel the same way the heroin is feeling. To be able to grasp the same sensation as they have described it in the novel. To live in a fairy tale and somehow live dangerously at the same time. I would want to feel butterflies in my stomach every time flattering words came through the window. Id want to feel the chivalry that men of my time has simply put aside�opening car doors, offering a seat or a drink, etc. Id want to feel loving unconditionally. Of loving forever, for eternity.

It may just be a novel. A romantic and thrilling love story. A fairy tale. But why cant it be a reality too? Why cant I be the princess who is saved by the courageous prince? Or the heroin who chooses to take her life for her one great love?

Coz I guess all these things are just stupid in the world we live in.

Nonsense.

Impractical.

just an update

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 17:48:17 GMT

i am employed and tired.

i am drunk and happy.

i am increasing in weight, and still is.

we are still together and living in bliss.

i guess thats it...i'll try to update this blog again. when i have time.

nowhere to go

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 17:45:08 GMT

..lost

not you

Wed, 28 May 2008 05:37:21 GMT

i miss you.

i miss our conversations.i miss our 'singing trip' on the way home after work.i miss 'our' room.i miss our nightly drinking sessions.i miss our phone calls and 'expensive' SMS.i miss our movie and shopping adventures.i miss being with you. i miss being silly with you and just simply hanging out with you. i dont know why. but strangely, i do. maybe because i really felt taken cared of. being loved for. being valued by someone like you. just like what you said, it feels like weve known each other for so long already, and i agree. i dont remember saying my thanks before i left. but i guess, it wouldnt be enough. cliche as it may sound though but, THANK YOU! Youve done nothing but look after me as if i were your own. THANK YOU!

till that day when we see each other again,

baboosh!

fly me to the moon

Mon, 26 May 2008 11:49:59 GMT

it was supposed to be a good day to start the week. i have an interview and we were going to spend some time together while doing some errands on the side. but instead, we had a fight. went home early with no amends made.

at home: had a heated discussion again with our new 'border' - my lola. it may sound disrespectful but then again, you dont know her so you dont get to judge me.

a thought just came up. what would i be doing at this exact moment if i were somewhere else? how would this day turn out for me if i were living some place else?

i wish i were somewhere else. i wish im with someone else.i miss you.